time flies when life is sucking the spark out of you

so, i tried to make it a full 2 months before i blogged again. i ALMOST made it!

but seriously, for the past 2 months i feel like i haven't had time to breathe.

i found myself not wanting to wake up and go to my daily grind, because it was EXHAUSTING. not really having time to myself, FOR myself, makes a big difference in one's attitude and overall well being.

also the fact that i didn't have a car for a month stressed me out to the point of crying myself to sleep at night and then crying because i had to wake up in the morning. i really don't ever recall feeling so completely depleted in all my life.

why did that girl have to total my car? why was i in her way that beautiful saturday morning? and the only reason stated was, "i don't know what happened. i just looked down for a second."

i'm sorry, but that really is not good enough for me.

for the past month and a half i have been waking up early and driving all kinds of places out of my way and dealing with all kinds of insurance people and bank people and lawyers and police just because she "looked down for a second."

her insurance company decided it was ok to only give me half of my car's value. and i cried. hello new car payment. because i wasn't about to buy a car that was older or more mileage than my old one.

so after WEEKS of dealing with ridiculous paper work and stressing about not having/getting a car, (because her insurance company decided that even though i didn't have a new car yet they were gonna take the rental back), i finally got a car.

and the next day i had to put a new muffler on it.

this was 4 days ago.

i am in physical therapy for my neck/back injury, but i feel tons better so that won't go on too much longer.

but i still feel like crying.

i think i need a good road trip to get the fuck out of dodge...and break in my new car.